I hope if your ever mauled by bears...

I dreamt of you again.
This time was different.
You lingered here.

Hurried as I awoke.
Life seeped in.
It was hours before I realized.

I tried to go to you
I tried to find you
For a second...

I thought I lost you.

Then I found myself.
Stuck between here and somewhere else.
I dreamt it all and forgot to realize it when I woke.

I let you stay on me,
Let you walk with me,
Let you occupy me again so easily... effortless
I let the idea of you permeate into my actual fucking day.

It's terrifying.
Mixing up life and consciousness like that.

In the dream, I was with you.
I was yours. I was bright, golden, trusted, one, whole.  Felt it, I finally felt it. Light. Simple. 
I questioned why, even in my dream, I questioned why, but I didn't search for it. I let it go.
I let go and let you in.


Where do you go after this?
I'm frenzied, frantic with you all around me.
It's been three years,
That's plenty of time.

but I just can't sleep...

© m.f. /Roxywaters Nov. 2012